They asked me to say my last words, but they were my first words

Regardless of whether or not it makes a difference to you, it means the world to me, I am only here because of you and I cannot do anything to let you know, because to be honest there's no way any human could ever reveal that kind of care, its impossible, you make me strive to be the greatest person on this planet, and the only reason I do it is so I can feel that I'm good enough for you, I want to help you even a fraction of the amount you've helped me, you are a part of me and you don't even know it, you are the reason I breathe and you hold me down when I need holded down, and you pick me up when I need picked up, and the thing that scares me the most is that you are holding my life in place and its possible you could never realize it, I want so much for you to reassure me that I really am okay, and I know being anywhere close to you will make me feel like the safest human in this universe, you bring out a side in me I didn't even know I had, you make me feel like the most worthy person in the world and I couldn't tell anyone why, you are truly so unreal to me that at times I'd rather think of you as just not being real, I want to keep you a secret, I want to keep you in my pocket, I want you to forever remain as the true hero you are, I do not ever want to disappoint you, I do not ever want to feel disappointed in you, I do not want to see the reason I breathe face to face, I am scared that I will never make my point, I know I will never make my point, Its impossible, I love you, I really do